I know that that sounds incredibly awful, but it's true. Like it does not feel like December, it doesn't feel like Christmas, it doesn't feel like I'm almost 18. It just doesn't. AHHHHHH help. I'm 110% the Grinch of the family this year. (IT WOULD REALLY HELP IF WE HAD SNOW >:O)
Alright besides that, I mean I'm just so distant from my mom and dad right now because I'm trying to figure out me, and what I want to do, and their opinions and advice that they've given me, I mean trust me it helps a lot, but I just need space I guess. I don't want to be pressured to go somewhere because of them. So, distance from both house holds sucks. I wish it didn't happen, and I wish I wasn't stressed out. I just want it to be happy and merry and feel like Christmas. I mean either way, as you get older, your interest and excitement in Christmas goes down. Once you stop believing in Santa, it's over... Sucky
I wish I could go back to a time when I still believed in Santa.
DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON CHRISTMAS MUSIC. It makes me want to stab the radio. I used to love it, and now it just irritates me SO much. And it's Christmas Eve Eve so I mean it's literally on every single radio station ever created. Resulting in a very angry me.
Anyways, I'm going to go force myself to watch Christmas movies, and eat Christmas cookies, maybe it'll get me in the spirit some. (I'm only hoping)
Either way,
I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas, and if I don't post before then a Happy New YeaR (and birthday to me :) )
Remember you can always email me: foreverkaylah@gmail.com
xoxo
kay
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