A lot happens in a year. I'm slowly realizing that in those 365 days, nothing stays the same. People leave, and relationships change, and there's no way of stopping it. You just have to accept it. The last 365 days have flown by, and now that I'm looking back at it I wish I would have tried to slow it down. I wish I stopped to smell the flowers more often. In the last 365 days I completed Junior year. Had my last first day of high school. Completed my last Field Hockey season at the high school level. There have been so many more firsts and lasts that have happened and so many more to come. I honestly can't wait to see what this next year brings for me. With graduation around the corner and college, and everything else starting in the fall. I know people always think that it's scary to grow up. But I mean as long as you just learn from your mistakes, and try to take things on as best you can.
Honestly, this time last year, I was in a really dark place. I didn't even know if I'd make it much farther. It was really rocky, and I stayed in that dark place for a really long time. I got myself out of it. I let go of the toxic people, and I pushed away the bad thoughts. I bettered myself for me. I changed how I did things for me, and for no one else. I know a lot of people that focus on a lot of other things besides themselves at this age. Though I feel like right now is the best time to focus on you. 18 year olds have their whole lives in front of them to focus on other people. Right now people should just let them focus on themselves. It's really important.
On another note, I want to make a list of things that I think that I should remember during 2016, and maybe things that you should remember for 2016 too!
I. Let go of the Toxic People, but most importantly let go of Him.
This sounds stupid, but getting over ex's is a very hard thing to do. But now is a good time to let go of the memories, and to let go of the way he made you feel. Just take time to remember why you didn't work out, and to remember how he treated you. Then let go of it. Leave his name in 2015, it's a newer year. Time to focus on a better you.
2. Cherish the Time with Your Parents.
Personally, I feel like I haven't done this. But realistically I have like 8 months left in the house, and then I'm off to college. Obviously I'll come home, but it'll never be the same. And one day they'll be gone. For me, I want to cherish the time I spend with them, and maybe spend more time with them, instead of hating them and always going against them. They are parents after all.
3. Pick Your Battles.
No you won't always get your way, whether it's with friends, or family or school. But you can't make a fuss over everything. Things aren't fair, and some of them won't even matter after a point in time. The things that happen in High School you probably won't remember. Just always remember to do your best with whatever you do. Get the best grades you can. Attend school as much as you can. Just do things for your benefit, not for anyone else. And when things go wrong, don't make a big deal out of it, unless you feel like it's 100% worth it in the end.
4. Someone Might be Better than You.
and that is okay. You just have to accept it.
5. Chose Who Matters Most to You and Hold them Close.
You never know when you're going to lose them, and you never know when things are gonna change and you won't talk to them much. I have a lot of friends that I don't talk to anymore, but I still have the memories. Things change, and that's okay. But for now just remember who your true friends are, and cherish the high school moments you have left with them.
I guess that's all I have for tonight. Birthday stuff going on tomorrow, probably won't post, so Happy New Year to all! :)
xoxo
kay
(p.s. the capitalization is very very random in this post, and I'm very sorry for that)
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