This is a lot harder than I thought..

This is a lot harder than originally planned. You know I thought I would post stuff on here and it would all be find and dandy, but it's much more complicated than that. I typed out this long post, venting to you about my life. I couldn't post it. I couldn't be that raw on the internet, even though people aren't even going to read this. So, what I'm saying is technically this is post two. But I'll just tell you a little of the basics about me.

I'm seventeen and in high school. Being completely honest it's so much more stressful than I ever imagined. Don't let people tell you that it's not, because in the moment it definately is. Also trying to juggle friends, and relationships, and work, and homework, and sports and everything. It's rough, but you'll get used to it, or you'll just struggle with it for the year, and that's okay. It's a lot, I mean you're trying to decide the next four years to the rest of the years of you life, all lies in your hands at seventeen/eighteen years old. It's crazy to think about.
Nothing really prepares you for what's coming. I've struggled with depression, anxiety, self harm, eating disorders all throughout school. I usually managed it pretty well, but junior and senior year seemed to make everything a lot worse. I promise it will get better, and you can do it. Just think, you've done it for days, and months and maybe even years like myself, but you can keep going. It gets better.
The high school change was drastic for me. It wasn't a very stable change, and I wish the series of event that happened didn't, but they did and that's what makes me the me I am today. Life's complicated, and you just gotta keep going.

The point of this blog is to help you and make you realize that you're not alone. You are not the only one. I know speaking up and out seems like it's the hardest thing to do. I get it, I do understand. The goal is for people to hopefully read this and take advice, feel less alone in this crazy world. Knowing that I'm always here for you. I'll share personal experieces and lessons that I've learned and hopefully some of it will help. I can only hope that from this I help more than myself. And maybe at some point I hope some of you are willing to share you story or stories on here. I can post them 100% anonomous,, and your idendity stays with me, or you can put your name on it, totally your own decision.

Feel free to email me anytime, for anything: forever.kaylah@gmail.com

My mail box is always open~


xoxo kay